Help Wanted...

Hi its me again... I'm in the mood to get a makeover... a job makeover... Don't get me wrong I feel incredibly blessed to have the job that I have but I would love to start working in a dental office. I would love to wear scrubs everyday and leave my nice clothes for nice occasions...

How do I do this? Where do I start?

I know I change my life around all the time. I switch my major, my boyfriend, my location almost on a weekly basis. Well at least it feels that way sometimes. My co workers have started to wonder if I have men on reserve so I can break up with them when I'm bored. Rest assured I hate breaking up... So believe me I don't have men on reserve for break up entertainment...

My location... well I love my new apartment and I love having a roommate so I think that is now a stability in my life! yay!!

My major... I love my classes or class.. I'm taking chemistry this semester and its hard but really interesting. I love reading the back of my toothpaste tube and actually know some of the elements involved to make my breathe minty fresh! Yes I know I'm a nerd! oh well... Now if I could switch my job so it relates to what I love to learn about that would be great.

Ok I know thats a "The grass is greener on the otherside" attitude. But if any of you know a dentist that is hiring... Nikki and I would appreciate hearing about it!!

Lean On Me

Dear Family,

Nikki and I were driving back from sorority and she was playing music from Trents IPod.(yes she has taken ownership of Trents IPod) Anyway the song "Lean On Me" came on. She asked if this was the song we used to sing as a family when we would get together. It brought back so many memories like recording songs in Grandma and Grandpa's condo, and singing in the ward talent show in West Valley. And how can I forget singing on Grandma Hand's couch... of course it wasn't lean on me but seriously that was one of my favorite memores. (for those of you who don't remember I believe we were singing If I could Walk 5000 miles... I dont' know the name of the song.)

So we started singing to the music knowing all the words of course. I Just wanted to thank all of you for being there for me. Sometimes I exclude myself because I don't feel like I fit in. Since I'm not married and I don't have kids. And sometimes I make the excuse that you guys exclude me. I just first of all want to apologize for that. The truth is I've been a little envious of all of your lives. I look up to every single one of you. I'm so grateful to have you in my life. And thank you for all the support and love that you have given to me. My life definantly hasn't turned out the way I planned it to but I'm grateful for all that I've learned so far. I hope that one day when I have a family of my own I'll be able to remember the things that each of you have written. I really do look up to you. You are all so amazing!

Love ya lots!

Crystal

Celebration

Ok so its been a little while. Most of you may be aware that I am once again back in school. I'm taking chemistry this semester and get this... I like it! I know weird right? Its still stressful and challenging but I like learning about different elements and seeing the effects they have on each other when they combine. Anyway I found the geek in me for sure! ;)

So anyway lets see what else is new with me.... nothing I guess... wow sorry I was hoping for a more exciting post but I think thats all I've got.

Thanks... Lesson learned... I hope

Yesterday I got pulled over for speeding... again... the second time in the last month. I tried crying to get out of the ticket but for some reason that never seems to work for me. Of course I'm fully aware that I deserve it but that doesn't mean I want it.

anyway I was a little hysterical last night. Now that I've slept I realize I caused myself to learn this lesson the hard way. I could have gone the speed limit and avoided the ticket. I could also have gotten into a bad accident where me or someone else was hurt or killed. Today I wish to thank all the police officers out there who do their job. Its not easy. NO one wants to see you... everyone avoids you and yet there you are to protect them no matter what.

I wish I could go back to last night and thank that police officer for saving me from a harder lesson but unfortunately this is the best I can do. So thanks!

Happily Ever After

Once upon a time there was a beautiful princess who fell in love with a handsome prince. They met one day in the local village. The princess was taking her usual walk to get her endorphins going and the Prince was hungry and looking for a place to eat in the village... castle food can be so tiring. The princess was rounding the corner headed toward the forest when she bumped into the prince. He looked into her eyes and couldn't believe he was staring at the most beautiful woman he had ever seen. He new immediately she was the girl of his dreams. They began talking the princess wondered how they had never met before. She would remember those piercing blue eyes. And a smile that could brighten any room.


From that day on they never left each others side. Life couldn't get any better than this. One day the prince took the princess on a walk to their corner where they met. He got down on one knee and said "will you make me the luckiest man in the world? Will you be my wife?" He told her he would love her forever and they would live happily ever after. And that is what they did. They lived happily ever after!

I realize I'm not living in a fairytale... nor am I any sort of princess... Me graceful... yeah right... I'm not expecting perfect.

I'm not expecting some guy in a suit of arms to come riding up to me in white stallion to tell me I'm the girl of his dreams as he rides me off into the sunset... although that does sound nice... I'm pretty sure if that happened I would be laughing at him.

I want someone who loves me. Someone I can call my best friend. I want someone I can go to church with. Someone who won't leave me feeling lonely. I want a man with a good smile and kind eyes. I want a man who can take a joke. I want a man who can laugh.

One day I'll find that kind of man. One day he'll take me in his arms and tell me that he loves me. One day... today is not that day unfortunately but with a list like that its gonna take time! So perhaps tomorrow will be the day or maybe the next day... someday! :)

Funny how things work out...

Its been a while since I've been on this thing... I guess I've been a bit busy. My last blog showed just how frustrated I was. As most of you have seen that has changed quite a bit.

In november I decided to explore all of my dating options. So I joined LDS Singles. I was already on EHarmony... Anyway that increased my social life by like 100% I was averaging about 3 dates a week... it was great... and I got some really good awkward dating stories out of it.

However funny enough the guy I'm dating now I met on trax... Now before you go and think that I'm crazy let me explain. We were both waiting for the train in freezing weather so naturally we start talking about the weather. This is where the conversation went all the way into work:
Nick: Where are you from?
Me: Texas
Nick: What Part?
Me: Dallas
Nick: What part?
Me: Richardson
Nick: What part?
Me: By Plano?
Nick: I used to live by Berkner High School.
Me: Wow my siblings went there.
Nick: I wonder if we knew the same people... Did you know an Ann Marie Goodrum?
Me: She was in my ward growing up!
Nick: She was in my ward too... I was in the Garland 3rd Ward.
Me: NO WAY!!! I was in the Garland 3rd Ward.
Nick: Wait! Whats your name?
Me: Crystal Crowther
Nick: I'm Nick Rupp!
Me: Oh my heck you have got to be kidding me!

So for those of you who don't know... Nick and I went to pre-school together. I went to all of his birthday parties at chucky cheese up until he moved when he was 11. His dad was our home teacher for 3 years... Oh and just to add to all of this he actually works at Zions bank which is literally just down the street from where I work...

I mean seriously does this really happen to anyone??? Anyway we are now dating... taking it slow of course so we can get to know each other. Even though it feels like we've been dating for months we officially started dating December 23. He is seriously the cutest guy in the world... but if you talk to him he prefers to be called studley!!!

Anyway just thought I'd share my random story!!! ;)

For the Love....

Alright thank you everyone for your support and love. I go through hard times sometimes and I have a hard time expressing myself because I don't want to be a burden... So thanks for listening and showing me how much you all care. It really does mean a lot.

So lately I've kind of been wondering when these trials will end. Will I have learned enough to finally meet a guy that wants to be with me just as much as I want to be with him. Last week I went to a fireside where they said trials like these give us an opportunity to gain our own personal relationship with the savior. I really do believe that. I feel that my testimony has grown and I do feel closer to my savior... How close does he want me to get? I think I'm done being tried in this area. I want to find someone I can spend the rest of eternity with. I'm tired of being alone. I wish I could be happy and content being single... but I can't seem to make that work. Don't get me wrong I have a good life and I'm happy most of the time. But sometimes I feel so alone and lonely that even hanging out with friends doesn't help. Does anyone have any suggestions... I'm asking guys out... I'm open to set ups.... I just don't know how much bolder I can be... How do you find good guys.... I seem to just find frogs.... Is there somewhere I can go? Maybe its an impossible task... I guess by 26 most of the good guys are gone... but theres got to be someone out there....

Sorry for my ramblings.. I just had to get it out :)

Here we go again

Well if you haven't heard yet I'm back on the market... Story of my life! but its good I get the opportunity to start over. so I get to go back to asking guys out... since we all know they don't know how to ask... and go on lots of group dates. Nothing else really to report. Life is full of learning experiences that make us stronger. I'm grateful to know I'm not alone and there is always hope.

Dating Dating and more Dating!!

So this past week the fam went up to park city. Which was a ton of fun we did lots of shopping and playing... it was really great.... but the highlight of my weekend is this.

The previous saturday I went to our pledge breakfast and met a friend (Heather) of a friend (Chris). We started talking. This friend had invited me to go to the nicklecade. unfortunately I was in park city but this Chris mentioned to Heather that I don't seem to go to anything anymore because I have a boyfriend... Which the last time we hung out yes I had a boyfriend.

So I text him and said that I wouldn't be able to hang out tonight since I'm on vacation in park city with the family... not because I have a boyfriend. so Chris and I proceeded to talk. And he discovered that I no longer have a boyfriend. and we made plans to hang out on friday when I got back from park city.

On wednesday Nikkole mentioned that our hang out was actually going to be a date... I was in complete denial because chris and I are just friends. Anyway so I text him and asked who else would be hanging out with us... and he said that actually he was thinking of just taking me out on a date.

So we go on this date... and I'm thinking we're just friends. THis is just for fun... and besides I said I wanted to go on a date every weekend. Well it turns out I really like him ... and he likes me... so I believe we're dating now... but its not official yet!! YAY me! I knew this would be great year!

Anyway just thought I'd share!

Update!

So here is an update on my date....

We met at Sugarhouse park at 7.... Sugarhouse is a really big park so the girls ended up in one area of the park and our dates were in a different area both matching the description of where we were meeting...

Anyway so I called my date and they ended up coming over to us since I was completely turned around! so then we had a picnic. we made peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and then went to play ultimate frisbee! it was a super cheap date and we all had a blast. Tanner ( my date) even text me the next morning saying we should do it again!

This is very encouraging! I'm excited to ask more guys out! This is going to be a fabulous year I just know it! :)

YAY ME!!!

So I just have to report on my biggest break through... Most of you know I have many insecurities, with that I become shy, and I'm single which means I want to date a lot but unfortunately guys can also be shy or something and they don't like to ask girls out.

So my weekend. I was hanging out with some of my friends in my sorority and one of them (sara) mentioned she wanted to go on a date this next weekend. And I had already made up my mind that I want to date lots. So I said lets go on a group date. We had a frat party to go to later that night so we decided we would find out dates there.

So we make it to the party and we see a group of guys sitting on the bleachers. Sara jokingly said hey lets go talk to them. So I started to head over. She then said wait lets make sure they are the best option. So we look around and they happened to be the only group of guys not talking to girls... so we start heading over. I introduced us and we started talking. I then told them that we needed dates for friday night which one of them are going to be our dates.... We got 4 of the 5 guys to agree to come on a date with us.!!! yay! And I failed to mention they were pretty cute!

Later that evening I also went and introduced myself to two other guys who will be potential dates in the future!! yay me!!!

Its been awhile...

I alway seem to think about my blog when something exciting... or traumatic happens... but what about the rest of the time... well I was thinking about this yesterday as our whole sacrament meeting was on keeping a journal... I felt this urge to start a journal.... again.

Yeah I get this urge every couple of years and it lasts for about a day or two. and then I realize I dont' have anything to write about...

I wake up, go to work, go home, sleep. But when I look deeper... there are lots of things that happen in a day for instance yesterday..

Yes I woke up at 7 AM and joined my ward to go to Music and the Spoken word... I've never been to one before. It was actually really nice and it lasted the perfect amount of time... but then they announced they were going to have a short meeting afterwards to commemorate the 80 years of broadcasting. so our ward decided to stay..... most of the talks were short however there was one guy who stood and seriously thank everyone who has been or will be involved with the choir. OH MY HECK! there comes a point when a standing ovation no longer means anything... For me it was after the 3rd time. And I was a little offended that I wasn't thanked... It felt like everyone one else was! I mean come on! just kidding :)

After he sat down we did get to hear from President Monson so all in all it was worth sitting through the many thanks!

Anyway... Thats all for now! :)

Crazy Crazy Ogden

Hello everyone! So my exciting weekend consisted of running in the Ogden Marathon. I mentioned this at the beginning of my training back in february. Well here is the result of my training. I ran the 5 miles. I stopped for 1 minute due to side cramps but decided it was better just to run through it. So I ran the 5 miles in 45 minutes and 3 seconds.

If you remember at the beginning of my training I couldn't even run a mile! I am just really glad that I did it. Yay me! I am definantly doing this again next year... I met so many great people just waiting for my turn to run. And to know that I did something that was super challenging is just exciting! Today I am burnt sore and can barely walk due to blisters on my feet but its totally worth it! I am officially addicted :)

Someday...

Someday my life will be perfect...
Someday I'll graduate from college....
Someday I'll have the job of my dreams...
Someday I'll meet that perfect guy...
Someday I'll have the perfect house...
With the perfect kids...
with the perfect lawn...

Someday I'll grow up and realize this just isn't going to happen... So Today I will enjoy what I have...My life may not be perfect but its my life. So I should stop thinking "Someday it'll be better" And I should start enjoying what I have. If I'm not satisfied now when am I ever going to be satisfied? Right!!! :)

Adventures in the Singles Ward

One of the great things about being single is the fact that I get to be apart of a very exclusive group... The Singles Ward. I know most people don't enjoy their experience and some are glad they have never had to endure the singles ward. I on the other hand really enjoy it... mainly because I love awkward moments... especially watching them!

So church on sunday was no exception to these awkward moments... Justin could give you more detail since it happened to him but since I found it highly entertaining I thought I would share.

There is a girl in the ward who ever since she found out that Nikkole and Justin are in fact related and NOT dating, has been trying to pry her way into Justin's life!! This girl is moving so Sunday was her last attempt to leave an impression on Justin... She left an impression alright!

So it started in Sunday School... Justin happened to have a seat open next to him so of course she sits down next to thats pretty natural and nothing too bad.... then Sacrament meeting came. She sat next to Justin and at first it was a normal distance... but then through out the meeting she kept getting closer and closer... she probably would have been more comfortable on his lap instead of being squished next to him... so Justin trying not to be rude leans forward... So she puts her arm around the back of the bench... and finds any excuse to be close to him. Then at the end of the meeting she is saying goodbye. And let me just add this little note... we are friends but not the type of friends that hug or that she would have hugged goodbye. However since Justin is my brother... yesterday we became close friends Anyway so she gets in one last attempt and comes up with an excuse to hug him...it was all I could do to keep from laughing.

I'm sorry it was rather funny... unfortunantly my writing skills are not what they should be so I probably didn't do the story justice at all but let me just tell you we were laughing about that one all day! Its funny the things you witness in a singles ward!

I can see clearly now the rain is gone!

Well I have some very exciting news for those of you who don't already know. I no longer need contacts or glasses... thats right I was brave and had Lasik Surgery. Its funny I would have thought I would have been super nervous. However I got a very different reaction.

I woke up the day of the surgery just so excited I was practically bouncing off the walls... for those of you that see me regularly I generally do bounce off the walls but not when I'm going to have a laser in my eye! :)

Anyway I go in to eye center and I was just chatting away with everyone I came in contact with... Also a very different reaction for me... as most of you know I am a very quiet person. Anyway, then the happy drugs kicked in... and I couldn't even tell a difference other than I was super tired... which made the actual surgery a little difficult. When they went to fix my left eye I kept falling asleep. YIKES! but no worries the lasers have been perfected enough to detect movement.

So by the next day I woke up with 20/20 vision yay! The only thing I have to deal with now is very dry eyes but at least thats just temporary! :)

Confessions of a Shopaholic

I've always been one to say "I hate shopping, I'm a get in get out kind of girl. Why would anyone love to shop, theres way to many people and the prices are so high who can afford this... not to mention have you seen the jeans they make these days... yeah right!" So as you can see Shopping was so not my thing any new clothes I got was because it was either my birthday or christmas and someone else went to the store for me!

Well recently I've realized that I love shopping. I love trying on new clothes. I love the smell. I love the joy in finding something that fits just right! I love the quick pick me up after having a bad day. (It's amazing how getting a new outfit will take away the pain of what ever!) I love how on good days I can shop and find something cute just because and it makes the good day even better! I love taking my time and just looking at all of my options. I love the prospect of finding the outfit that feels like it was made just for you. I love the snug fit of a brand new pair of jeans that make you feel like a million bucks!

Luckily I'm very aware of my finances so I don't charge my credit cards up the wazoo! However I can relate to the Confessions of a shopaholic... it is almost lke the stores speak to you!

Crystal Needs...

So thought I would copy my lovely cousin Robyn. So I googled Crystal needs and this is what I got:

-Crystal needs a LOT of love
-Crystal needs someone that will be patience
-Crystal needs a home
-Crystal needs replacement
-Crystal needs to sit in a super-saturated solution to continue growing ( Yay I'll be tall before you know it!!!)
-Crystal needs a park
-Crystal needs to be coated french-english vocabulary (huh?)
-Crystal needs identified
-Crystal needs help
-Crystal needs to chill out

So I thought it was really funny!

Do you ever have those days where if someone looked at you funny you burst out in tears? I am just way too sensitive... first of all I woke up this morning with very negative thoughts about myself... although true... its probably not good to dwell on the negative. But yesterday I realized I have become a completely selfish person... Anyway so then I get to work and well lets just say something wasn't done correctly and so of course I was talking bad about myself and then to have that happen the tears just started to come I couldn't stop them. I knew I was crying for no reason but when I would tell myself that I would cry harder... Boy do I hate being sensitive!!! Anyway I realize I shouldn't post this but sometimes I just need to let it out, so I'm going to anyway.... sorry for the negativity:)

I Love to Sweat

Ok So it has now been a week since I started training. There are a few things I learned.
1. Running isn't as easy at it looks.
2. The Treadmill is completely different from running outside.
3. I love the feeling when I've just completed a run. I'm dripping in sweat, I'm sore and completely worn out.... I love it!

Thats all I've learned so far but training is going ok. There are days when I just don't think I can do it but I always have someone there to tell me that I can... Anywho! Have a great day!