Saturday, September 4, 2010

Back to School

Life takes some interesting turns. I remember when I graduated from High School thinking I had my life planned out. I would graduate from College in about 4 years and get married about a year after that... ok really I thought I'd be married pretty young.

I'm so glad that things don't work out sometimes. I am still in school and basically starting over. But I'm so excited about studying nutrition. My plan is to be a personal consultant one day to help people pick a diet that will help them get over their anxieties and feel better about themselves... I'm still a work in progress. I still have my panic attacks but I still believe that the food I put in my body has a huge impact.

And believe it or not I'm so glad I didn't marry young. I think back on the guy I was dating at 19.... Not active in the church or life... What kind of life would that have been. I mean seriously. As much as I don't like dating thats not all the single life has to offer. I was able to quit my job and start all over if I had a family I wouldn't have been able to or comfortable to take such risks.

I still have moments of wondering when my life is going to start looking up but then I remember it already is. Heavenly Father knows me far better than I know myself. My plan was below mediocre. His plan is making me a better and stronger person.

I suppose thats enough of my ramblings. Have a great week :)

Monday, July 19, 2010

To date or not to date?

Question.... When some one calls you Almost Sexy do you still go out with them? How about if they say you're like a mosquito bite they can't stop scratching?

I never thought I would ever have to face being described like this... I think guys need to learn how to use pick up lines and what would constitute as a pick up line.

Dating is entertaining. Without dating my life would be pretty monotonous. I'm struggle with the thought of should I date or should I not... With comments like these its a really tough decision.

Now you all know why I haven't settled down yet... With comments like these I just want to date forever!

I have decided a dating sabatcle would be nice for a while. Of course everytime I decide to do that I get bombarded with dates... Well here's hoping! ;)

Sunday, May 2, 2010


I know I should be working on my Chemistry finaly but I find this to be more fun. I don't really have alot to update right now. I still have my challenges. I'm struggling with knowing which guy to choose, and if I should keep my car.

Right now I'm dating this guy that is completly amazing! He's in the army which is kind of what I worry about. I'm not sure if I'm strong enough for that kind of lifestyle. I do love to travel and see new places but I also love to be near family. Anyway I know he wants to be a little more serious but I'm not sure I'm ready for that. When it comes to love I am a chicken. I'm so scared of making a mistake. How will I really know when its right?

Lately I've been feeling more like its far more easy to stay single. At least then I'm the only one hurting. I just can't seem to figure this dang love thing out. I know that this probably won't get read but if someone has some insight or would like to share the feelings you had when you were single and searching I would appreciate it.

I know it seems that I go through life dwelling on the fact that I'm single. But I guess its the one place that I don't have much control. I just wish I knew.

Well I guess thats enough rambling for today.

Monday, April 26, 2010

Babysitter Anyone?

Ok here is the deal. I am going to be quitting my job in August so I can go back to school full time. In doing this I have decided to pick up some babysitting. I can do nights during the summer when school starts I can do some afternoons. If anyone has a need of a babysitter or knows of someone who needs a babysitter please let me know. I would appreciate it! :)

Friday, March 26, 2010

Help Wanted...

Hi its me again... I'm in the mood to get a makeover... a job makeover... Don't get me wrong I feel incredibly blessed to have the job that I have but I would love to start working in a dental office. I would love to wear scrubs everyday and leave my nice clothes for nice occasions...

How do I do this? Where do I start?

I know I change my life around all the time. I switch my major, my boyfriend, my location almost on a weekly basis. Well at least it feels that way sometimes. My co workers have started to wonder if I have men on reserve so I can break up with them when I'm bored. Rest assured I hate breaking up... So believe me I don't have men on reserve for break up entertainment...

My location... well I love my new apartment and I love having a roommate so I think that is now a stability in my life! yay!!

My major... I love my classes or class.. I'm taking chemistry this semester and its hard but really interesting. I love reading the back of my toothpaste tube and actually know some of the elements involved to make my breathe minty fresh! Yes I know I'm a nerd! oh well... Now if I could switch my job so it relates to what I love to learn about that would be great.

Ok I know thats a "The grass is greener on the otherside" attitude. But if any of you know a dentist that is hiring... Nikki and I would appreciate hearing about it!!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Lean On Me

Dear Family,

Nikki and I were driving back from sorority and she was playing music from Trents IPod.(yes she has taken ownership of Trents IPod) Anyway the song "Lean On Me" came on. She asked if this was the song we used to sing as a family when we would get together. It brought back so many memories like recording songs in Grandma and Grandpa's condo, and singing in the ward talent show in West Valley. And how can I forget singing on Grandma Hand's couch... of course it wasn't lean on me but seriously that was one of my favorite memores. (for those of you who don't remember I believe we were singing If I could Walk 5000 miles... I dont' know the name of the song.)

So we started singing to the music knowing all the words of course. I Just wanted to thank all of you for being there for me. Sometimes I exclude myself because I don't feel like I fit in. Since I'm not married and I don't have kids. And sometimes I make the excuse that you guys exclude me. I just first of all want to apologize for that. The truth is I've been a little envious of all of your lives. I look up to every single one of you. I'm so grateful to have you in my life. And thank you for all the support and love that you have given to me. My life definantly hasn't turned out the way I planned it to but I'm grateful for all that I've learned so far. I hope that one day when I have a family of my own I'll be able to remember the things that each of you have written. I really do look up to you. You are all so amazing!

Love ya lots!


Tuesday, March 2, 2010


Ok so its been a little while. Most of you may be aware that I am once again back in school. I'm taking chemistry this semester and get this... I like it! I know weird right? Its still stressful and challenging but I like learning about different elements and seeing the effects they have on each other when they combine. Anyway I found the geek in me for sure! ;)

So anyway lets see what else is new with me.... nothing I guess... wow sorry I was hoping for a more exciting post but I think thats all I've got.